hi. here to tell you that the race is not all smiles everybody posts on instagram. it’s actually sometimes crying in the woods (lol).
the race is one of the greatest things that’s happened to me, i’ve found God here in ways I didn’t think were possible & the community became family very quickly. it’s beautiful.
but, it’s also so messy. it’s a daily choice to love when it’s hard and to chose God when I don’t feel like it. a couple days ago we found out we’d be launching to Guatemala (!!) Jan. 7th and if it’s anything like what our team leaders make it out to be, this is about to be good!! but, in order to make ministry easier we need to be in teams of 7 or 8. My great, great team manna that i wrote a blog about back in September is only a team of 4, meaning that all of the girls are placed into different teams. hearing this news was a complete shock since teams normally stay together for all 9 months & i also really really love my team. here’s a snippet of the letter i wrote them for one of our team times: “manna- this team has been everything i didn’t think i needed. sisters who build each other up without fail, sisters who love each other unconditionally, and sisters who’s ultimate goal is to watch each other grow. how cool is that?”
getting this news left me with the choice to either be angry and bitter towards leadership and God or to chose love and hope towards what a bigger team of different girls has to offer. it’s not going to be easy walking into this season with a different group than expected, but what I am expecting is for God to show up. while walking in the woods today (crying) & talking to God He asked me “is my goodness reliant on your community or is it reliant on who I actually am?” so, i’m ready, scared, but ready for anything He’s got for me.
ps. i’m fully funded!!! it may not look like it but I am lol!! ( all of our fundraising bars went to 0 for some reason) He’s so good and He’s so faithful, so here’s a big thank you to Him and you!! every single person who supported prayerfully or financially, thanks a million.
love u. mean it.
kayla
So so proud of you Kayla and what God has in store.
Yikes! That’s hard. Will any of you get to be together or are you being placed in 4 different teams?
I love you. I am blessed to know you.
This blog is sooo well written. I love you big time, and I am so proud of you! Stepping into this new season is going to be challenging… but soooooo very good!! Here for you, always!
Steve and I have loved reading your blogs and staying updated on your adventures. We continue to pray for you, Kayla, and for your family back here as well. YOU are loved.
Oh Kayla! That’s so hard! I am praying that this is another example of how God has so much better planned for us than what we thought. Hoping that you will bond with your new team quickly and that your trust will deepen.
Big Hugs!
Annie B’s Mom
Oh dear -sorry for the disappointment with the division of your team but you are right- It’s God that is faithful in providing and He always does great work no matter how different it may look. Praying for you as you go forward with trusting anticipation! patti